It's Ben's birthday today. He is 35 years old.
He has stopped talking since last week. I too stopped talking when I am around - all the "tricks" that got me so close to him all these years have failed. I don't know what goes through in his mind, he just stares blankly. Last 2 days he turned his face away from me.
Happy birthday Ben. I would have bought you a cake. But maybe it's too late. Though I did send you cards before, I never bought you cakes. I should have bought you cakes.
And here I am not knowing how the hell am I going to give you the card tonight - whether it'll be insensitive, whether it will make it more painful for you.
I have many wishes unfulfilled and many grudges with the world. I would have forfeited all my grudges if only you get back to who you were, even who you were 2 weeks ago. Talk Ben, talk to me.
Anyway Happy Birthday Abang!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
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Dear Rough
ReplyDeleteI don't know what is in your mind too. But I know you mean a lot to Ben and he always likes you; maybe he likes you the most.
Don't be sad, it is a journey he has to go through. You have to be there for him.
And take care too. Each time I saw you, you rarely smile nowadays. You have always been very bubbly.
A SENIOR
Even though I don't know what's wrong with Benan, I hope and pray that he'll get better soon insya-Allah. Wish I can be in M'sia and visit him myself, instead of looking and googling for bits of news from blogs (although I am thankful that some bloggers post up news about him). I wish him and you well.
ReplyDeleteInnalillah wainnalillahi rajiun. I heard that he passed away ard 4 pm today. May his soul rest in peace and ditempatkan di kalangan roh roh yang dirahmatiNya.
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Innalillah wainnalillahi rajiun....
ReplyDeleteinnalillahi wainna ilaihirajiun... al-Fatihah..
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